what i said was 'don't worry about it'
what i meant was 'i am still ripped all to hell inside but i can't tell you how i really feel because you can't do anything about it anyway'
what i said was 'it's okay'
what i meant was 'i feel an aching despair in my stomach every time i think about it...it's just something i have to live with until it quits hurting...'
what i said was 'i love you'
and it was what i meant with everything in me, and so i cried